../ Here are some collected thoughts about christanity. Sesificly the indevidual strain that Elliot Bridges was exposed to. 2025-01-02

The Emotion Paradox

the thing which makes most sence is that which you grew up thinking about religion takes hold in a brain, then later the only thing that gives deap meaning and ourpose is that which is deaping tangled with that religious upbringing if we want to take emotions were does the netolga for childhood come from where does the love for your home come from where does the love for your perents come from where does the love of a childhood friend come from. where does love for god come from? it come from the lived experience which makes your brain the way it is. right? its a cyclical and circumstantial relationship. change the circumstances, change what that brain loves. where does you beging and they start??? as i lay here in bed listen it the room i do not hear silence the silence is filled with my tenitus, a noise. its filled with my heart beat. the reality i see is created by my physcial presence. how can a person be emotional genuine? with the relization that their opinion iscontoled not by them but their circustaces. the buety of the unsayable comes from the saying of the sayable call it hope a human mind coinstruction to pass the time and make life worth living are you willing to be a human? its imposible for a brain to observe without a tinited observation we cannot see ultra violet its a conflict between the "known" reality and the experience "reality" (in quotes because relativew?)