Pycedelics

THC

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2025-05-.. 5mg

Went on a hike with with good friend, right before I took half of a 10mg THC gummy, so 5mg. It was hard to tell when it had kicked in. Its the slight strain from a hike. The diffrence of being with someone in a new and pretty situation. The greenery was beutiful. The whole time was super pycologically self observing. Hard to tell what was the drug and what was me being minful of the situation. Remember fealing some kind of sleepyness, or body teird, it was a hike after all, very steap to. The first experiencal change that might have been the drug was a widening of the point of focus in the vision. Usually my point of visual focus is small, there is more periferal vision. Remeber seeing a plant, I could see all of it at once if that makes sence. We had a awsome conversation. Bro was talking about the ideas from Karl Yung for male and female energys. Bro postulated that these ideas are experetions of fundemental energies to the univerce. I still think they're just labels for simular sets of behaviors. Bro thinks of transness as being a combination of these two energies, it makes sence to em in that way. Tried to show the grey areas of the two "fundemental" forms. What exsactly is masculine? Is it violence? "Protection?" "Logic?" (huh?) What is feminine? Love, emotion? why is feminine not logic or the other side of logic. Just emotion? If anything anger is more ilogical emotion and love is a logic of understanding and truth. Arn't we just getting that idea from what we've been told? The problem is calling these two ideas you've come up with to fundemental sides to a coin. It does not allow us to see them as a changing system. This is how it is nd how it will be. Just consider the diffrnce between chimps and bonobos. They are our closest relatives yet share diffrent scopes of emotion and societal function. There's nothing fundemental about this. If these ideas change over time than they are not experesions of some unchanging thing, they are just relational observations between various ideas. They are experetions of patern observation. Anyways. The main thing felt was a warm sence of "being present". We had gone on other hikes before and remember feeling more thoughts coming from far away, from the city, the people and situations over there. Now felt more focused of my suroundings, the physicality of the trees and the traill. The clouds came in and out, beams of sun and places of cool shade. It was easier to mentalize. Could have just been the situation, a safe situation with a friend.